Down I go

I've lost 11 lbs in 10 days! I'm actually losing the weight I want to lose. I'm getting stronger. I've had more energy. My clothes aren't feeling looser yet, but I'm looking forward to breaking through my first goals of losing 25 lbs and being able to run 1 mile. Right now the couch to 5k app is having me run 3 minute intervals, phew those are killer! But it's good. I feel so good when I'm done and it's a great time for prayer too.

Wifely woes

My fridge is not keeping my meats. I have yet to figure out how to fix this problem, in the mean time I have to grocery shop every other day so we stop throwing out food. Other then this issue I'd say emeals has been helping with my diet and budget. 

The running is going fantastic. Yesterday I went my fastest and farthest! I've lost 5 lbs in 10 days. So overall things are going well. 

On the spiritual side. I'm struggling. I think there are bigger heart reasons besides not just making it a priority, but I can't quite stick a pin on it. I have been reading "when I don't desire God" by John Piper. Hopefully it will shed some light on the problem.

This last week we thought about buying a home, but we've decided to not rush things. We want to be able to buy the home we want not the home we can afford. There's a big difference. 

Losing it

As I've contemplated the weight loss journey I'm embarking on, I've realized I think why I gained basically twice my weight since high school. I had an eating disorder in high school. I think after I overcame many of the struggles causing that problem it was like I had to prove to myself that being as fat as I thought I was or at least feared I'd become wasn't as bad as I thought. In someways it's not. I'm still loved and cared for by many including those I was sure would reject me. But it sucks being fat. It is hard to put my shoes on. I hate clothes shopping. I feel self conscious out in public. I feel as though I'm done proving that point to myself and. I'm ready to go back down to the size I'm supposed to be. Not with an eating disorder or other twisted mentalities but just eating healthy and being active. I don't want to be limited by my size in the way I interact with my future son or daughter. I hate that on Saturday my weight limited my time at the zoo with my husband. I'm done letting this control me. I'm taking back control.